Spinning out the wheels.

I'm back in my blogging time again. And revived.

There are some bad news and good news coming to myself lately, and it's gonna be one of those tough times I can say.
Okay, so we start with the bad news. Unfortunately, I will need to repeat my IELTS test again. This is the consequences of looking down on things when you're supposed to concentrate and take it seriously.
Second one, I have been fined by Curtin parking. TWICE. This has been my very first fines I got in my whole experience driving in Perth. I was intending not to pay a ridiculous $95 parking permit for some reason. I only need to attend 2 days of classes for a week, and one of them is after hour. Who is to be blamed if the visitor paying machine only takes coins, and who the h*ll out there collecting coins in their purse anyway.

Okay, let's move on to the lucky news ones.
I just got a replacement for my lost old phone, and all I can say of it is AWESOME! I have a cute laptop I could carry around with me. Like seriously, ever since I got this baby I barely open and use my Mac for browsing and youtube-ing purposes.
Another one, I have finally finished my degree. Thank God so much for such blessing and guidance throughout the years of my study. It has been such amazing times working with my project team members, awesome people.

So, I guess the next step's not gonna be easy too, since I will start holding adult's responsibilities in the future...

Anyhowwww, meet my housemates! :D

(Left to right: Achid, Icel, Dita, Me )

Thanks for the support girls! You rocked up my days :D

What motivates more :)

I have experienced quite a reflection for myself lately. Here's the thing. Every so often I imagine if I can be like those busy working people, rushing down the street, catching buses or train back home after working all day at the office. How amazing it is if I can earn and save money, and use it for future plans, say travelling around Europe. I am often as well not grateful for what I have now, or have this thought of, if only I were born 4 years earlier it would have been easier to make decision to stay here in Oz permanently. However, reality never compromises and you just can't step back. But then one day, I was sitting in a train after getting back from work and there were lots of people squeezed in like sardines. It was 5:30pm, where other people just finished working too and absolutely was peak hours. I looked around, observing and wondering. I always have thought that God wanted to show me, although those cool looking office people seems to be able to suffice everything they want, does not mean that their life are without flaws. That train was also filled with people who seemed to be not as fortunate as the office looking people, and everything they wore were just simple cloth with hand-sewn patches. They seemed happy coming home after work, they were smiling, as if no burden bothered as ever. 

I wanted to share this thought because I guess we have quite similar point of view for our life. We worry too much about things in the future, as a matter of fact, we have not even completed our presents. Simply giving thanks to God each morning that I still can eat fancy food, roof to live under, and amazing people around me; what makes it be more perfect? :) 

Moore and Moore, Fremantle.

Days have been very busy for no reason and I barely visit blogger for almost a month. So happy that I found quite a few updates from my friends' blog, which then inspire and encourage me to update mine too hohoho.

About a month ago, we visited Moore and Moore in Freo with couple of lovely friends I have here. It had been the first time we caught up together since long ages ago. The vintage furnishing and ambience  totally made the day!

Most recommended sweet breakfast! 

Will be definitely going back here again someday :)

Rating: 8/10

Cheers!

I have been replaying awesome videos and playlist on my iTunes whenever I feel a bit down or lonely and it helps me so much to unravel those strengths I thought I never had.

Notes to myself.

Sometimes I wish I could run to far away places, where there are a bunch of people whom I don't know, start new conversations and find the likeliness we can share. It's just like a whole world that is new, where you can start with anything you've ever wished to be. Having separated-over-continents families just makes it so hard to stay on the steady pace. I'm scared of being alone all this time. Well, it's not that particular 'alone' as often described as not having bf or anything. It's about being all by yourself where you are in this particular country, study, live, struggling hard to fulfil your daily need, economize on everything. I'm afraid that the time nearly comes, where I have to find a job and you would not want your parents to support your living anymore. 

Seeking comfort to myself, which I thought I've been so stupid thinking of it over and over again, even bring it to my dreams at night. Being honest to my feeling just does not help, just pretend that I am being honest. Even if you can't get over it, just tell yourself you are. You have to accept the truth, and someday you might understand and everything starts to make sense. Maybe I will just keep you in my prayer every night, wishing you are well, and let God decides. Because it is a very nice and warm feeling when I can talk about you as long as I like, only to God, every night. That is the only way to keep you safe, and I know you will be alright in His hands. 

Every so often too, I felt like I need to hide, from the reality. How you see other people's life is better and start comparing it to yours. Trying to be strong is indeed a very difficult task to do. Easily saying, but when you have reached the peak of your strongest, sometimes you still find it so horribly hard and start raining down your face with tears overnight, but thanks to God that He makes us smile again the next morning. The cycle keeps going on and it is driven back to the so-called waiting. I'm still here, being better and stronger, renewed. It is the leap of faith that keeps me standing in this solid ground, waiting someone to pick me up, waiting for the result of hard works that I've been putting during these years, waiting to be able to be with my beloved family again. To summarise, it is to get a better life, the improved one, only from God :)

Surviving the long holiday.

I spent the whole holidays doing nothing particularly useful. This really happens, where I stay at home alone while waiting my housemates come home from their work and amazingly I survive until now!

So one day I had this crappy thought of recording one of my most favourite piano pieces based on the Pride and Prejudice soundtrack, which is one of my most favourite movies at all times too hohoho. So please enjoy and pardon my amateurism in it.

Oh and by the way, the title is Dawn by Dario Marianelli :D Have a great weekend peeps!

Hear, pray, and seize.

Have you ever been in a situation where it felt so right at the beginning, but it turned out to be very out of your expectation? 

The phrase above is the highlight of my post today. It seems to us that we're likely getting certain situations under our control. 

We tend to estimate that we likely achieve what we've expected, because we are pretty sure that we have nailed all those obstacles along our way. However, those expectation obviously turned out to be your biggest disappointment, and you began to questioning God and start to doubting His power. 

It happened in our lives, where we thought God was providing the way and He opened every obstacle that got in the way to it. But unfortunately, we got it all wrong and we kept ourselves down, running away from reality.

It may not be the good answer for 'us', but it might be the best way according to 'Him'. Sometimes we wish and pray for the outcome that 'we' want, but we do not open chances for God to actually shows how He wants it to be. 

To straighten this up, we might want to consider of adding up something to our prayer, perhaps:

"Oh Lord, please give me strength for whatever the answer would be. If what I wish is not according to Your want, please teach me to accept it and never give up on You. Help me to become stronger, and show me the way that You want me to do."

Let's open up our heart, keep praying, and ask for His enlightenment. Sometimes God is being very nice that He might confers what is called miracle :)

New look.

Gooday peeps!

Just presented a new look for my bloggie, because it's new year. Does not seem like a reason indeed, but I just felt somehow the previous theme was so girlish and pretty. I did confess that I created it, though, but as the new year begins I feel more mature in quite certain areas. Ehm.

* For the first time in 2012, I become very organised in my laundry. It did happen today, as I just came back to Perth not more than a week. But it feels so good, your room does have space. I always thought my room was very small, could not even do spreadeagle on the floor. Hopefully this will keep going on every week throughout the year.

* Besides the laundry, I did some plans on weekly cooking, listing down the ingredients and go for the grocery. I found another winning method on spending my money wisely, instead of going crazy buying things, then you forgot that you've ever bought that until you found them as strangers, mouldy look.

* One more of a major improvement, is that I'm having my breakfast every morning. I used to have breakfast once or twice a week (That is why I've been told by one lecturer that I looked like a zombie every time I came to her tutorial. She guessed that I never had breakfast in the morning, and yes she got it right. Seriously, her class started at 8 am for the whole winter and I thank God I could wake up at 6:30 and caught bus on heavy rains and arrived on-time).

So, I do believe that if the Chinese says this year brings prosperity and good things, according to the animal sign of Dragon. I just wish those more improvement lists of mine can be shared here later on and not just stuck on this post for forever!

What about yours? :D

It's somewhat the beginning of good things.

Hohoho this is exactly my very first post in 2012.

Nothing much updates in the beginning of the year, except that I'm currently off from Perth, having my holiday back home.
I'm not going to list any resolutions this year, as what I have listed last year didn't work much as I've expected. So, to begin this year I will just say that hard work is all what I have to work out now.

I'll soon to be graduating in less than 6 months, which twists my feeling whether I should feel happy, or sad, or scared. I keep asking myself pertinent questions whether I could get through this or not. Some side of me said I'm competent enough to do it, you've done your best in your uni stuff, but some side of myself said conflicting matter, as like you haven't been there yet, or adult's life is entirely perplex. Oh well, I really need to try my best this time, trying hard to cover the bad-thought-side of me.

And I'm currently in Indonesia, having my best precious time with my lovelies for only a short amount of time, apparently. But I guess I have to get use to the way of how you yearn for holidays much once you've get employed after graduation. I have a feeling that this year would turn everything just finer than last year. Hope you have this kind of feeling, too, and never give up on every single faith you have :)

To start this year, let's work hard and be inspired with one of the Eastern States of Australia, so-called Sydney. I wish I could move in there and get settled someday :D

Taken at Manly Beach.

Pressies ♥

I'm close enough to the-most-wanted holiday I've been longing for this whole break. It's one more week, ONE MORE, till I blow up my savings for Christmas present for me. No one's gonna buy me a present, so I buy it myself, lols.

I've been wanting a new iPhone. I didn't know why I end up altering my phone plan to Blackberry last time. Now it doesn't work at all, and I'm using my old iPhone again. I'm thinking of getting an iPod touch, which is not a bad idea though hehe.

Anyways, I just received Christmas presents from my lovely students and it's just very impressive. I wouldn't have thought of giving my piano teachers a Christmas present before, back in Indo, guess I was a bad student in considering. 

In addition, I baked them cupcakes to give away. The funny thing that I could remember was, they were playing very nice, focussed and listened to every word I said, and that was the first time they worked out their best for the lesson. Eventually, they had seen the cupcakes on the table before the lesson, and they already had this little thought that I would give it to them lol.

It's a great feeling being involved with them, one of my best experience ever that I could have such wonderful and brilliant children here :)

Mac Cheese!

Hands up if you're sweating like crazy right now! Not even right now, it's the whole day I've been trying to survive the heat. It's a horrible christmas for Oz people over here, we can't even expect for a white christmas, or a winter wonderland. BLAH!

I'm celebrating this heat with the so loveable Macaroni Cheese. I'm dead by cheese. I can say a farewell to diet, hohoho. 

:D

Well, it's obviously close to my most awaiting moment. Mom's coming next week. Yess, it's next week finally. We'll be spending christmas together with my sister and her boyfriend this time. Will be a great time together I reckon :)

And I've been telling myself gladly that I've moved on again. It's been a hard time, but I got the better strength from Him. He answered my prayer every night, and I know something's good is about to come. I'm not talking crap here, but I just know it :) It no longer matters what will happen, and it's all just about time, isn't it? 

Well, I'm hoping you had a great time planning and preparing your Christmas. May God bless be upon us all :)

I should hang in there.

This time I don't completely understand of how I should put me in a right position. I still can't say that I'm strong enough to continue this myself. This is the point where I can't do anything about it and accept whatever that happened. As I have been thinking, I was really sorry and I still don't know whether it was the right decision to make. I know it doesn't really mean anything for now anymore, but it has been a precious moment where you were part of my life and where I thought I would never lose you. It's probably too late now and I always want you to be happy. That was always be the reason I'm holding on to you from the beginning. I wish I could see things in a bigger perspective, but I'm trying hard now not to be a narrow-minded person. This time has finally come, the biggest fear of my life it could ever be. I have to face it and I should not longer become a weak person. This is the point where my mind and heart battling so hard, figuring out the best way to overcome this and make it balance again, and yet I still couldn't find the way. I have done whatever I can, in every possible way, but then I realize again that this is the real answer and I should not ask for more. And this would ever be the last words I want to say, "thank you" :)

Happy birthday Mumsie!

Baked specially for my mum who was having her 51st birthday yesterday :)

Happy birthday Mumski!

I wish you happiness and healthiness, and never give up of being a perfect mom. 

You have always been the greatest mom ever, taught me to be who I am, a stronger me

that can always rely on God. 

Stay young and beautiful :)

Love & pray,

Your daughter

I still survive.

Holaa ♥

Firstly I want to say good luck for friends who are still having final exams. Keep trying and do your very best, let God do the rest :) 

I believe in every hard work you did, you'll gain an achievement you've never expected before. Tee-hee...

Anyways, it's been my 3rd week of break and what I got is a load, bunch lists to do from work. But always thanking God for this that I got the chance of getting the hang of how actually  accounts assistance and administration work feel like. I experienced Quickbooks as well! All I ever knew was I heard accounting people using it, and it's popular. So I'm having a big smile inside that I can actually operate it myself. Hohoho. Not a big achievement though, but still. At least I know I could fix my failure in accounting in past experience for now. 


I'm also preparing myself for the final year project at uni that I'll be doing next semester. Can't believe it's my real final semester next year. I'm praying hard so that I would be in a group of good students, have a nice client for the project, and I have a feeling that I should learn the programming again during the holiday... Or, if I'm being accepted for the Professional Practice (hopefully I make it!), my dream of becoming a full timer at the CBD would become reality... *keep my finger crossed*

And, a big annual concert of my music company are coming up next week. I've pretty much coped up with stress for some of my students that keep asking silly questions like:

"What I'm going to play again for the recital? I completely forgot." or

"What does concert mean? I don't get that." OR 

"So... I'm doing the piece, and you're gonna be watching me? Aren't you supposed to be teaching me?" 

*speechless*

However, they are all awesome kids after all :) I'm going to make them cupcakes for christmas present, I hope it'll turn well. 

And for me myself, I'm going to perform a duet with boss. Hopefully I could cope with the pressure, lols. 

And, it's exactly 4 weeks for mom's coming and Sydney. Then home. Then (hopefully) Singapore :) 

And, I still think that I shouldn't have let it happened  from the beginning. But I still survive. I don't want to give up, I never want to. I'm just hoping for the best to come, through God :)

Taken at Louis Baxter, Subiaco.

Chocolate chip cookies.

The only thing I'd love to do, killing time and getting myself out from this anxious thought I have at the moment. I dug up mom's recipes in my drawer and this is enough to make me feel calm for a moment :)

With a glass of hot milk you will get the hang of how this could turn your mood upside down :)

I wish I could bake this for you, to cheer you up in the FYP you might be working on right now. I wish to hear from you soon :) 

Dedicated posts.

I've been a wreck lately. I finished my exams, the very last exams of my degree, but I'm supposed to be jumping and running around to celebrate this. Instead I found myself crying out, hiding in the corner of my bedroom every night, hiding from the reality that I wish it would never happen. I've never been like this and I don't know why. I lost one more person who is too important to me and there's nothing I can do. There's nothing I can do to make you stay and I can just say, here I am, I'll try my very best for your happiness :)

You've been my precious gift and I learnt everything of life lesson because of you.

Thank you for being my loyal reader, and if you notice every single post I wrote lately is only for you :)

Not so fancy, but will do.

When you have limited stock of food in your pantry (like I do over these past few weeks), I could not afford of buying fancy food, even from the supermarket, I can finally survive on this.
Will be waiting for mom's coming to get a more proper food in less than 2 months and really excited for it! ♥

Some slices of Krakowurst, yum ~

Some button mushrooms to garnish

And toasted with cheese :)

Keep the spirit on for the rest of the uni final week and let's enjoy the break!

The dawn.

Lizzy: I couldn't sleep.
Mr. Darcy: Nor I. My aunt...
Lizzy: Yes, she was here.
Mr. Darcy: How can I ever make amend for such behaviour.
Lizzy: After what you have done for Lydia, and I suspect for Jane also, it is I who should be making amends.
Mr. Darcy: You must know, surely you must know, it was all for you. You are too generous to trifle with me. I believe you spoke with my aunt last night, and it has taught me to hope as I'd scarcely allowed myself before. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I would have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love... I love... I love you. And I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.
Lizzy: Well then. Your hands are cold...

Pride and Prejudice

A letter.

Dear you,

I think I'm taking the right path now. I didn't know what I was waiting this whole year, for some magic or miracle to happen but I know now it wouldn't change. It will always stay like that, and I've been blinded. I've now found a missing piece I've been looking for. Now I also realize that I've been missing you, so much. If this are going well, I know that I won't let it go again. I've been pretty sure with my option, and what I can do now is to convince you that I'm purely in love again. I can ensure you that it won't be happening again. I guess all the things have been a set of examinations for us to learn to grow up. I wish I can prove that I'm being better now and still trying the best I can, and I hope you do to. There are always ways to kill the distance, as long as our hearts remain stronger than before. Don't you think so, too?

Yours trully,

Me

:)

Meet Bert!

I just got a huge buddy from the Perth Royal Show this year. Yes, after my existence in Perth for 3 years, it was my very first time I could see what exactly the show was about. So many colours and toys that boosted up the mood :D

Love love love ♥♥♥